Right now I am feeling like I hate all these things:
- that it's the second trimester and I am still throwing up.
- that my sleep is totally screwed up and I am constantly tired
- I feel like a horrible mom because lately I have been very irritated with Kaia as much as I love her there are days where it's just NOT cute that she managed to get into the fridge or the diaper wipes or SOMETHING that creates a mess. All in the time it takes me to pee.
- our insurance that we got from a program here in Ohio that has been wonderful because it's free cut us off because we just barely make too much to qualify,but yet we can't really afford insurance (also am totally useless parent for this)
- the fact that I can't go to my OB for a checkup until the new insurance kicks in and I am way overdue for one having missed the last one because Kai was in the hospital (also am horrible mother for this)
- I have no energy and feel like shit and like a lazy bum because I have no energy, there are tons of pregnant mothers out there who work and deal with a toddler at home and still manage to have a clean house -what the hell is wrong with me that I am so damn tired???
- I REALLY hate the fact that we have to get a new car out of the blue and it's causing huge financial problems, because N has no credit and therefore can't get anything credit-wise and my credit is absolute crap because of an insurance error that didn't cover Kaias birth and I owe thousands of dollars..... so we may have to buy yet another crappy car that will break and thus the whole process starts again
- I am a socially awkward person and often feel very isolated because I only have a few people that I am comfortable with and making new friends almost rarely happens ....
I also really don't like the fact that there is more that I could say but I am too chickenshit to say it. I'm just going to end here, and go to bed and hope I feel better in the morning.